The Last Time
Such a privilege
To rub your back
And smooth your hair
As you cough and vomit and strain to draw
Breath
In between telling me stories of happy times
And sad times
Saying goodbye to friends
Whose bodies could no longer hold
Life
And I wonder how much longer...
But you plan for tomorrow and next week
As if things were not the way they are
Today
So I say goodbye
Hoping
This will not be the last
You let me walk back to the ward
With you
And as we walked (so slowly) you spoke
Of life
Near death
You said to me
"I'm not sure how much more I can take"
I looked and saw
Your face
Pale and taut
Your body
So frail and stooped
And knew without knowing
This would be the last time
Miriam Johnston
July 1997
Miriam Johnston is a physiotherapist at The Royal Children's Hospital
in Victoria, Australia. She works with cystic fibrosis patients there,
often near the end of their life.